| Museum District, Richmond,   Virginiaafter Frederick Douglass
 IReading on the back steps of the library for the blind,
 I’ve decided the building’s abandoned,
 rose bushes a tangled mass above the door.
 Old blue-gray paint sticks to my thighs
 in sharp-edged flecks; my water bottle beads.
 Just one of Douglass’ days.  College kids speed
 by on track bikes, brakeless.  (For how much
 must we prepare?)
 A mile away, I visit an old estate nearly every day. I want to know what stood there before, if the owners
 once held slaves.  A  park now—I wander, wary
 and amazed, the waterfall rushing from Italian gardens
 to Japanese, koi blanching the rippling black.  I know
 where to find the lizards skittering
 over the staircase before it ends, opening
 to a vista thick with tulips.
 On the other side of the park’s huge hill,
 bison scruff layers of mange,
 their profiles hunching brown against green.
 Yesterday, one buck under a magnolia tree
 shed its antlers, stood braying by the fence,
 two bloody nubs on its head.   What
 is it, luminous in the pink lobes of the dogwood,
 that makes those blooms shine so bright?
 In high school I had a math teacher
 with a monotone who taught us the plug and chug—
 put the numbers in, execute the drill.
 Just one right answer, x equals something.
 With each bound page I imagine today’s moment
 on the pad I used in class, light green, graphed . . .
 Just one of Douglass’ days.   “Feet so crackedwith frost that this pen
 might be laid in the gashes.”
 Staring at my teacher’s shellacked black hair,
 twenty years ago, I considered the lesson of the hour:
 Two non-parallel lines, even to the most minute
 fraction, will eventually cross.
 How meager their representation on my sheet
 of graph, how they might have to travel,
 so my teacher said, all the way to California
 before they touched.   No one seems to know
 if these library shelves still house books,
 the building’s small squared windows
 obscured with marbled glass.
 I come to absorb the quiet in the sun.
 Patrons must have once rubbed fingers
 over bumpy bindings, discovering what—
 I can only guess.   Their language,
 regardless of darkness or light,
 would give me no entry.
 Consciousness is a terrible thing. It strives, endlessly, to curve around
 the slickest of surfaces,
 any understanding sliding off like rain.
 It bends again, forms an ellipse
 of every degree.  One  day.  Corn meal
 in a trough.  All of  Douglass’ words
 fade from the page, all mine dissolve
 like bits of bread dropped in water.
 IIToday, as I read, sheetrockers across the street
 flash their white squares of wall past windows
 of the old retirement home.   Condos, after the building
 sat for two years in marvelous, deserted slumber.
 I find the movement of the men awful, their trucks
 ripping up boxwoods and ivy, their silver work trailer
 signaling the end to emptiness.
 That any thread could run between then and now,between Douglass’ days, ours.  That one captive hour
 joins these steps, these flowers.
 How the mind keeps taut this rope,
 the human bracing for either extreme.
 Easy, then, to believe that two parallel lines
 can travel forever, then further,  and never meet.
   Persistence This island is full of doves.  They purr in olive trees to  assuage
 the near-dead.  Perhaps,
 in their incessant song,
 they are like the disembodied
 head of Orpheus
 floating down the Aegean
 toward the town of Molyvos.
 It bobs past the port town
 of Skala Kaloni, past the mess
 of white masts leaning
 and rocking into each other, past
 the distant, scrubby finger of Turkey.
 What are we to learn
 from constant refrains, from such  refusal
 to end?  The doves simply repeat,
 like a mother who answers
 the same question time
 and again, while the mouth of  Orpheus
 lives like the body of a chicken.
 His drifting head goes on
 not just speaking or reciting
 but singing, as if happy to  be rid
 of bulky torso, of floppy arms and  legs,
 as if freedom is being the mouth
 alone, the mouth and water,
 the water and song.
   Watching Soul Train at Forty At least no one else has to know.   Twenty years ago the fabledSaturday night, grilled on Mondays for what you did,  might cast
 you into this realm or that.   Wasted, some concert with a beer-caked
 floor, in and out of The White Hen too many times, buying  cokesin flimsy cups crunchy with ice.  You could run into someone big—Craig
 Wilkenson, Tim Cottier even—your whole life changing in an  instant,
 recognition from the stars. Today, DVD’s come to our door.After you’ve yawned your loudest yawn I watch the post-flick  extras,
 one dog at a time allowed up on the couch.  They sigh and sink
 their fat necks into leather, peer back with Malted Milk  Ball eyes.   And whennothing else is on, it begins, the locomotive of cool, Don
 Cornelius’ voice, luring me toward the few chosen guardians
 of funk.  I can’t help  but think the dancers on the screen can see out,one at a time, smiling—sure—at me.  Blue tickers start to run
 through church snow closings at the bottom of the screen
 as if Soul Train’s converting entire  congregations.  Above,teen and twenty-something girls with bare bellies
 and hips like laundry in a washer window slosh
 to some song featuring the nouns junk and hump. Five songs later the girls start to seem sad, how much
 they love the camera’s eye, how it seems they would do
 anything for it, from any view.  I want to tell these girls:terrycloth shorts, rainbow tanks and glitter tees:  I was there.
 But they’ve got those hips, those flat stomachs and plump
 skin; they remain immortal even as the snow wears onpast two a.m., even as the First Baptist church on Monument
 Avenue cancels all Sunday services, through three sets of Do
 You Want an Exciting New Career in Technology and TellYour Insurance Company We Mean Business.  In second grade
 my best friend Jackie and I discoed on the bed, tripping
 in her mother’s sequined, ruffly skirts and spiky  heels.   When the showwas over Saturday afternoon had just begun—boxes of dolls’  clothes
 or the tire swing or some brightly-dyed treat
 to make us crazy.   We  had her mother’s closet and racks
 of gargantuan shoes.   My mother’s wigs and rhinestone tops.
 An evening of sweaty running up and down the stairs
 from her apartment to mine.   Whatever it was,it was endless.  Now I  check the locks on the front door
 for the eighteenth time, Windex countertops, turn the heat  down
 a couple notches and, in bed, lights off,
 I’m certain no one is watching.
    
 Tara Moyle was the recipient of The Academy of American  Poets Catherine and Joan Byrne Poetry Prize in 2004 and was nominated for a  Pushcart Prize in 2006.   Her poems have  appeared in such journals as Agni, Diagram, Margie, Yemassee, and in the anthology Joyful Noise published by Autumn  House Press in 2007.  Tara teaches English and Literary Arts at the  Appomattox Regional Governor’s School in Petersburg,   Virginia.  She lives in Richmond, where she is attempting to become a  birder.
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