The Translucent Nature of Irises
for Valerie Persinko
1.
dark bloom etched.
see, i am not afraid
there were thin lines
of blood, rising in beads
see, i made this my own
i can make decisions. i can watch them stick.
it is so important
that you know the story
there is a story
[the particulars dissipate
a long garden, stretching against pavement
the scent of it, rising]
2.
sky broken into bars
filigree of blue
carved and curved
can i take a knife and slice each apart?
i have heard of golden filaments of sunlight
it was a dead girl
who wrote those words
though not yet.
she laughed that afternoon
exposing her neck
i wanted to touch it she said
later, but of course later, she died.
or was killed.
it varies on the telling.
3.
is this how i will be remembered?
sunbleached.
how is she remembered?
laughing.
4.
there is a paleness to my skin
that looks unfamiliar.
as if i were disappearing
it was seven years ago
delicate girl thin bones
i wanted to touch it she laughed
later of course, later.
i had forgotten about her. seven years a lot happens
even so certain things
can no longer change
i make sure of this :: etched
always the same state of open
always the same state of closed
5.
what would she say
about the faded places here?
it was the sunlight
tangled beneath a new jersey forest
that she curved her hands
to show me
golden bars golden filaments
each finger trailing
i walk beside lizards
press my hands into sunwarmed rocks
while she slips into the dark spaces
how did i forget the circles she made against the air?
6.
bright bloom
i am used to cold being the downfall of petals
here, it is the heat that kills
a few, though, survive
shake their heads
and bend gently
see, i have lasted
i can continue
even beneath this
everpresent sun
there are others
equally strange in this place
others [imagine innumerable fields
imagine, then :: two and the way
each compliments. corresponds.
makes possible.]
Alexis Vergalla is currently a graduate student of creative writing at the University of California, Riverside. Her work has appeared in Eclectica and Plankton, and she is the editor of Crate.
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