Hangover
A knife in the mind, a desert
in the throat. Kaleidoscope
of bottles in the trash.
Slowly is the only way
I can move into the yard,
the morning gauzed in mist.
On the lawn, a paper plate
dotted with cake crumbs,
a flurry of ants. I think
through the throbbing
and the night spools back
in scraps, the gaps in-between
large, deleted for good.
A little like death. Or nowhere
near. What dying will do
with memories I can only
speculate: crumbs
left on a plate or carried
one and one into the grass.
Self-Portrait with Baby Possum
That’s me halfway up the ladder,
crouched beneath the roofline.
That’s me gloved. Slanted on the shingles,
that’s a paper plate, peanut butter
banged from a spoon. Silence now
except for the wind chime pinging behind me,
the distant screams of schoolchildren
delivered by wind. I’m listening
for the ratatat of claws
and here they come clicking over the roof.
Here comes his pink nose, the rat tail
following his toddling. My hand
in the air, my mind in the air, thinking
Now, wait, now. Such a sound
the animal makes in my grasp,
a static-in-the-throat, both hiss
and breath. Down the rungs I climb,
the youngest of three. The fourth
seeped through my mother’s fingers
at the foot of the stairs, at the end
of her descending. Such a sound that went
ripping through the house.
The wind chime silently hangs.
No bells in the blue sky. That’s me
down from the ladder, holding the possum
up to my face, looking at his looking—
eyes puny, glassed over, rigid
in their sockets, darker than mine.
Closer
My neighbor kneels
on his lawn,
a chainsaw wailing
in his hands.
The sky turns
a darker lilac, the saw
sings a higher howl
as the spinning chain
cuts a tree stump
leveled across
cinderblocks.
He brings the blocks
closer, halves
the stump again.
Moves the blocks,
halves the halves,
sawdust fountaining
down to the grass.
So a thing that grows
slowly in rings
is diminished in minutes.
So a thing goes
as night charcoals
toward the skyline
and the moon turns
a brighter bone.
Little Wall Clock
It went kaput. No matter
which battery I put
in the battery slot,
the hands would not
sweep, stopped
forever at three-thirty.
Mid-afternoon or
insomnia hour,
it’s anyone’s guess
when it ticked its final
tick, told us in its own
mechanical way,
This second right
here is the last one
I’m tracking. Cheap
little plastic thing
we always ignored
anyway, a narrow
band of dust
along the topmost
arc of its head—
dirt, dander, dead
skin and pollen,
the miniscule husks
of insects—all of it once
airborne, floating
around the bedroom
where our own hands
keep moving, twitch
while dreaming,
clutch in lust.
Cry Box (1987)
after Ed Ruscha
It’s about yay big. Heavy as God. Built from six
panes of breath. Depending on the light it is clear
or opaque or somewhere in between. Silence is
a sibling. Wind a cousin. Without your singing
it flattens out. All eight corners go. Fill it if
you want to. There is no right side up. It’s all right.
David Hernandez was recently awarded a fellowship from the National Endowment for the Arts. His third collection of poetry, Hoodwinked, won the Kathryn A. Morton Prize and is forthcoming from Sarabande Books in August 2011.
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