The Luck of a Jelly Fish
I’m a simple jelly fish
aimlessly afloat
on the jersey shore
An under tow it’s low tide
lugs me to the last life
guard stand
beached
I’m stuck burning
beneath a glaring sun
Two green heads
buzz by a shoo-bee’s ankles
I doubt I’m supposed to
be here
And yesterday
the sharks were eating
children again
in this blinding red heat
Stranded
it’s only a matter of time
till the sea gulls get me
I need to see
the psychic
near Mr. Peanut Head
The teller hints of citrus
and sun tan lotion
She’s big boned
with long thick fingers
her gold bangles
dance like wind
chimes with each flick
of her wrist
She cups my tentacle
Stares gently
“You are an unlucky jellyfish”
she says her eyes sparkle
due to the sins
of my past lives
she explains
I had been a nomad
and killed a few women
a mosquito and fathered
more than a few bastards
She can change my luck
and my future
All I need
are two of her crystals
and 5 more sessions.
Diameter of My Father’s Guilt
Struggle
gambling on
cheap casinos
amid
flawed patrons
looking for pleasure
paying
for ways to win
my father is awarded
a medal
for 5 years clean
Innocent
to sobriety
and addiction
I watch my father
graciously accept his award
Beyond
milk and bananas
sudden weekend service
at Union Baptist
routines of
of jelly beans
and fake grass
for breakfast
intertwined with strange
confessions of narcotic
messy adventures
Out-of-place yet there I was
a pubescent listener
captivated
by illicit stories
of a liquid lunch
sex-work
on an off duty officer
a grandmother’s
stolen heirloom
pawned with last
year’s Christmas gifts
In a room fluttering
with recovering addicts
my father adorned
like an Olympic
gold medal
displays his medallion for 5 years clean
I wonder how
I would measure
In a “Just Say
No” generation
cautionary tales
of alcohol and drug addiction
a noble gesture
an easier conversation
than dirty
gay sex
Self-taught
Questions
of pre-cum
spewing from an
uncircumcised penis
pulsing in my
adolescent mouth
could not be asked
Buried secrets looming
like orange moons
why bring me
to a space full
of brutal
truths
sticky confessions
bones exposed
A rebel
I just said yes!
Righteously
I said yes a lot
despite being
too afraid
to say
no.
“Love on a Two Way Street”
Momma and I visit Sista on the 5th floor of the children’s ward
Her nurse a good-looking woman with strong manly hands
whack Sista’s back hack-up mucous rooted in her lungs
Careful I touch the red button on her breathing machine
delicately cause I don’t want to break it
I am autumn leaves dotting a wet deserted boardwalk
Six years apart I hold my sisters’ hand on Chicken Bone beach
Fatherless dodging greedy sea gulls we laugh sweet in the salty air
the ocean breeze cool our warm feet gathering sand crabs
leaping the high tide first born doomed by the current
While Sista collects sea glass and broken shells
I drown under a cloudless sky
I am memory in last month’s black out
In the front pew “Hush little baby” Momma whispers to Sista
A school picture of me smiling closed mouth
adorned with white and red carnations takes place of a casket
I am bits of chocolate molding in a stale box under Mama’s bed
Mama’s birthday party I force myself to stay up
cause I don’t want to miss the best part
she performs an oldie but goodie with Sista standing by
Her belly full with Sutter Home head tilt back sun-kissed lips toot
a tune of a tender woman “Found love on a two-way street
and lost it on a lonely highway”
I am last winter’s leftovers wrapped in foil freezer burnt
The roaches will have a feast tonight with what’s left out half-eaten and undone.
Freedom Summer
Sunday night a young boy
tips out quietly
closing the blue screen door
of his father’s row home
A blue moon night
In the Capital
a protest erupts
A cool white Lincoln
observes disapprovingly
While tourists purchase
Newport Lights Double Mint Gum
The Times the kid enters the book store
on Dr. Martin Luther King Blvd
Chanting, “No Justice No Peace
No Racist Police!” The people
hurl piss bottles at faceless
officers armed ready in riot gear
Beyond the “Enter At Your Own Risk”
sign the kid fingers the merchandise
Hustler Beef Cake and Black
Inches parade full frontal
A body bloody unconscious
decorate the monument’s muddy lawn
A prop its media in a frenzy
cash on the chaos
The boy disappears inside a video booth
peep holes stink of sweat and cum
rippled porn stars flicker beneath
grunts of soft gut liquid moans
The blue night is rocket launched ablaze
hot tear gas and black bullets fire
bombed citizens scramble for cover
Looks like a war zone
A dark Spanish man enters his booth
His tongue easy and fertile
tickle the roof of the kid’s mouth
taste like beer and freedom
Eager the stranger pulls down his pants
erect fingers spread the kid’s legs his mouth
pressed against a blue video screen
and the sky opens
The kid can hear glass breaking in the distance
A fire truck echoes the Pledge of Allegiance
“One nation under God” hand over heart
“Hace el amor motherfucker Hace el amor”
Travis Love is a poet born and raised in Atlantic City, New Jersey. He has developed much of his writing in Murphy Writing workshops. He is the founder of the The Sex Brigade, which produces Story Slams and Poetry Slams, and creates a supportive space for writers to share their work in Atlantic City.
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